Last December, I prayed to God that I will start the year the way I wanted to. I ended the year with a broken heart and missing soul. Where nowhere to go and not knowing what to do. Where to start. Wondering where I am.
As I go back with those days. I never realized that
He gave me more than what I deserve. He gave me more than what I asked for.
I let myself stucked in an end point highway. Drowned in the center of a sea. I stand for what I believed and neglected all the red flags. And still continue walking in a thin ice, stepping on a broken glass.
I almost lost my faith in Him.
I was wrong. . . .
God already showed me the right way from the start and I chose to walked in the wrong direction. I suffered a lot fighting for the wrong one. Keeps myself bleeding and hoping he will gonna save me.
But then, until I was totally empty, nothing and helpless. I kept fighting with those flying arrows strucking me..
And I died!
The unbearable pain is turning into fire in my heart that will bring back the strength I already had. Those moments of grieving made me see true people around me. I got so disappointed that I didn’t see anymore the person whom I know they were. And they are totally different from what I knew about them. I have been told many times and they just keep proving me things that I don’t believe about them before.
They broke the wrong part of me. They broke my wings and forgot I had claws!
They took the chance when the time that I was really vulnerable and willing to give what was left to me. And I am now healing the pain and continue living the life I should have been living from the start..
Continued. . . .
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